6 months

Today (March 30, 2014) you turned 6 months old, so to celebrate your half birthday we released balloons at your resting place, we burned a candle all day for you. I imagined what you would be doing at this age, who you would look like, what type of personality you would have, so many things ran through my mind.

We remembered you, Bentley Layne (and we always will!)

To my surprise the day wasn't as rough as I had thought it would be. I think I worked myself up so much knowing that it was approaching and I was just really expecting to just be a complete mess all day, but I think I had a harder time in the days approaching it rather than the actual day itself. It definitely was not the easiest of days, but I chose to really sit and think of the memories I have of you. Your hiccups, you had them at least twice a day everyday, I remember watching my belly jump over and over again, I even caught it on video. I remember how you would kick and as soon as your Daddy would put his hand on my belly you would stop. When your big brother would talk to you in my belly you would move around and kick, you recognized his voice even more than mine I think. Ayden and you already had such an unbreakable bond. You gave the ultrasound techs such a hard time - you did not want your picture taken and you did not want to be monitored. We were sure that we were going to have our hands full (little did we know we'd never get the chance).

Six months ago you were born still and quiet, but perfect in every way. That day my life was turned upside down, but I am choosing to live for you. I am choosing to carry on for you, your big brother and for your Daddy. We all love and miss you so much, Bentley Layne. I hope you had a happy half birthday my precious boy.