The day your headstone finally came in I was just a little happy or maybe relieved that you would finally have a resting area that was fit for a baby that is as special as you are. I came to visit you the afternoon before it was put in and when I pulled up to 'The Garden of Angels' they had already gotten your plot ready (dug up) to put your headstone down. I sat there by your grave and cried...I cried because I thought about how close your body was to me and I actually thought about using my hands to dig you up. I wanted to hold you just one more time.
I woke up the next morning and we got ready to go watch the groundskeeper put your headstone down and decorate it for Christmas. Arriving there I tried to keep myself calm and busy so that my emotions wouldn't get the best of me. Once I saw the tractor coming with your headstone I knew I wasn't going to be able to control my emotions anymore. I cried and for the first time since you have been gone it was tears of happiness and sadness because you had a proper resting place and a beautiful headstone that we cold decorate each month in remembrance of you.
You are so missed my baby and always will be. Mommy loves you, Bentley ~ XOXO
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