Your 1st Christmas

My Sweet Bentley,

Your big brother woke me up this morning, so excited to see if Santa came and what gifts he had brought. I have to be honest and say that the first thing I thought about was you. How the one thing I wanted from Santa would not be waiting under the tree for me. I bet you know what Mommy hoped for...it was you! Only you. That shouldn't be too much to ask for, right? After all I am your Mommy. Even if it was just for one more day. I would hold you and never let you go. I would tell you that I love you until I was blue in the face.

I think all of the things that you would have experienced on you 1st Christmas. You would be too little to open gifts or enjoy the wrapping paper. so I imagine your sweet eyes mesmerized by all of the lights. I think of all of the people who would have spoiled you this Christmas and all of the hugs and kisses you would've gotten. All of the love you would've felt.

I hope you saw last night, Christmas Eve, all of the people that gathered at your grave to remember you on Christmas. The candles we lit and some of the 'Acts of Kindness' that were done to honor you. It sure let me know that people are thinking of you and remembering you.

I hope that your 1st Christmas in Heaven is as perfect as you are. I miss you my baby and love you so so much!

Merry Christmas

HUGS & KISSES,
Mommy